New Me VS Old Me

I had my first "slip up" today. Though I'm not so sure it's a slip up since I'm not following any sort of plan. I indulged a little bit more than I normally do is what I'd say. But I have grown so much and learned so much over these past 8 weeks. And I realized that today more than ever. Winter is really hard for me. I cry at inopportune times, I let little things get me down, I become overwhelmed and panicked at little things (more so than normal!) I'm sensitive by nature, but winter just brings it out ten fold. Anyways, as most of you know it's been a long week for me and today in particular was a bad day. I was really tired and slow moving this morning so I was running late trying to make my bus. My sister, very forgetful sometimes, forgot a metal candle holder on the stairs, which I didn't see. I took a spill. I'm in some pain. I was already crying before I left the house. Once at work, my boss asks to speak to me in his office. He's unhappy with the e-mail message I drafted for him yesterday. The one he asked to be 1 paragraph in length and generic. He's unhappy because he wants it to be 4 paragraphs long and quite specific. "Absolutely," I responded. "I'm sorry that the draft wasn't what you were looking for; I will write one up ASAP that suits your needs." I go to the washroom and cry some more. How frustrating is it when all you want to do is yell because it's not your fault that he changed his mind and now wanted something completely different than he did the afternoon before. And then when I had another question, I went to his office to go ask him, and I woke him up so I'm pretty sure he's going to forget what he told me anyways and want something completely different. After work, I came home, got my pj's on and crawled into bed. It's a comfy night. But I wanted to treat myself. And I didn't want my 1 chocolate or my 100 calorie bag of popcorn, or whatever it is I would've chosen. Here's where I've noticed big changes in myself:
Old me would've eaten an entire bag of chips, and any chocolate I could find in the house.
New me had a bowl of tostidos with salsa, and 4 lindor chocolates.
Old me would've thought I "cheated" or "failed" and thought the week was a bust already, so why not be careless for the rest of the week.
New me is not mad at herself. Yes, she ate a little more than normal. Yes she feels slightly bloated. But she knows in the grand scheme of things that she will still lose weight this week or at the very least maintain her 21+ pound loss.
I'm competitive and I work hard to be successful, but I know that I am not perfect. In fact, one minor "slip up" in 8.5 weeks is pretty damn good! I've been eating so healthy throughout Christmas, the parties, the nights out, etc. I'm proud of myself! And tomorrow morning I will wake up, focus on the postives, forget about the negatives, and continue on to lose these last 26 lbs or so!

Yesterday's meals:

Breakfast - 1 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch cereal, dry

Snack - Starbucks tall skinny caramel latte, 2 calcium caltrate chews, 1 fruit cup

Lunch - 12 pita chips, 2 tbsp. baba ghanoush dip, Apple, Chocolate pudding

Snack- 100 calorie shapers bar

Dinner- Weight watcher's smart ones rigatoni dinner, Diet coke

Snack - 1 ferrara roche chocolate

Today's meals:

Breakfast- 1 cup of Kashi Go Lean Crunch cereal, dry, 2 caltrate calcium chews

Snack- Fruit cup

Lunch- 5 olive oil and basil breton crackers, 2 tbsp. roasted red pepper dip, Chocolate pudding

Snack - S'mores granola bar

Dinner- Chicken quesadilla (240 calories), Diet coke

Snack- 1 bowl of tostidos with salsa, 4 lindor chocolates