Beautiful Day, Beautiful Life.

I've got a lot to be thankful for, to be honest. And I know that. I love relaxing, lazy Saturdays. And I'm feeling accomplished. I got up at 7:30am, wishing I could sleep in a little later, but also aware that falling asleep at 10:30pm probably didn't help my internal alarm clock. Since Brian was still asleep, I crept into the family room, dragging my blanket behind me, and settled in to catch up on last night's 90210. Once Brian was awake, we caught up on Blue Bloods. Great new show. Police officers and lawyers within the same family. Shows different view points on crime. This week was a particularly interesting epsiode. After that I proceeded to get more last minute cleaning done.... and then got ready. We left the house around 10:45am and I did a bit of driving. I feel like I'm more nervous now than I was when I started practising. I think it's probably going to be beneficial for me to take some lessons in the spring. We then ran some errands, took a look around Chapters. Chapters around Christmastime is wonderful. I love all the overpriced decorations and chocolates filling up the entranceway. All the Holiday inspired Starbucks drinks. All of it. I just want to walk around and soak it all up. We met Melissa and her boyfriend Jordan at noon at Subway, grabbed our lunches and drove back to the apartment. Had a nice couple of hours to catch up with Melissa, who I haven't seen since my birthday (back in April). It was nice. Her and Jordan left around 2:30pm to continue making their rounds of visiting different friends and family members. I took a nap. I love when I have the time to do nothing but lay there, dreaming of things to come. Now Brian is completing a government exam online as I sit here and surf the net, with the time to blog, dinner in the oven. Tonight we're heading out for a friend's birthday.

Meals for Saturday:

Breakfast - Blue menu dark chocolate bran muffin, 1 cup of skim milk (260)

Lunch - Subway 6" turkey on whole wheat with lettuce, onion, pickles, hot peppers and light mayo. 4 cups of water (380)

Snack - 100 calorie bag of popcorn, Quaker granola bar, Diet coke (260)

Dinner - Blue menu sheppard's pie with 1 tbsp. of ketchup, 2 cups of water (415)

Snack -100 calorie chocolate bar, 1 beer at the Keg, 2 cups of water (300)

Daily Total - 1615 calories.

No workout for today, but right now I'm focusing on my food. I also reluctantly put away my scale last night. I find with doing the stairs at work 3 times a week, I went up a couple pounds and then seem to be maintaining there. Which is fine because it's not fat, it's muscle and it's bound to happen. But I want that number on the scale down. I am sure a lot of people can relate. When I try to lose those 2 lbs and don't right away, I start to get frustrated, leading me to want to give up and over eat. I was weighing myself every day, sometimes more than once a day. So far it's 3 days of no weighing myself. Maybe I'll be able to last a week, maybe more. One day at a time. I just want to go by how my clothes feel for a little while. Sometimes I'll feel thin, clothes feeling loose, and then if the scale doesn't reflect it, then my thin feeling has gone out the window. Maintaining is MUCH harder than losing weight. When people tell you that, believe it! It's such a struggle.

Another issue is that I've got so many holiday events, dinners out, drinks, dessert coming up. Last year I was overweight and desperately wanted to lose weight. That makes saying no to all the sweets... not easy... but EASIER. Now that I'm at a weight I am happy with, it's hard not to give in. But I know I will be able to pick and choose my treats and not come out of the holiday season having gained weight.